He has a smile that lights up his eyes and a laugh that is deep and tells a story of which you'd like to hear more
He listens closely and values your words and how you put them together He loves his family, and always answers when his mom calls He wants to live out his dreams and isn't afraid of backup plans He has silver fingers on his guitar and the way he plays them mimics the way he happens to strum on your heart without even knowing He has a voice that is deep and inviting and when he sings he makes you feel all of the feels and you'd love to hear him talk about anything and everything for a very long time He loves kids and his backup plan is saturated with them He does not like commitment because he does not like disappointing people He says, "Marriage will be hard" He is hard to nail down, to put into words, but your affection is becoming easier to articulate He always replies to your text messages, even if it's three days after the fact, and then He apologizes that he has taking so long although the wait has been more nervous than inconvenient He laced his fingers through yours once and you wish that he would do it again and again and again He bent down and wrapped his arms around you twice (on special occasions) and those hugs were the best two hugs you'd ever had (not that you're counting) He ignores the future and overanalyzes things, not unlike yourself in both regards He does not want to grow up and reminds you a little of Peter Pan (aside from the adulthood thing, they are both blonde and charming) He thinks that going into the room where a girl sleeps is awkward and although you kind of share the sentiment, you are willing to endure and hope that your friends love you enough to deal with him He follows through with the few promises he makes and when he does, he does so with a smile He thinks before he speaks when others are around, but when around you, He says silly and sometimes offensive things that could be taken way out of context, as long as you're alone together He has become very talkative now that you know him better, and you want this trend to continue He is the most attractive person you have ever met (not just physically) and you can't decide whether he should know that or not He seems like he's the real deal (you'd love to find out) He has been in your dreams (subconsciously, you wrestle with ideas of him and ideas of feelings and you are just as awkward as he is) but He is awkward in the best way, and you wouldn't change a thing He is mellow and witty and tall and understated to your loud and short and smart and harsh He is not perfect, as you are well aware, but you would really appreciate him to offer you more opportunities to add, delete, and revise this list a million times over
0 Comments
Right now I'm listening to a radio station on Spotify based on "Who Are You When I'm Not Looking?" by Blake Shelton. I am totally in love with that song, by the way. I'm going to write about my love life or lack thereof for twelve minutes, and then I have to go to my introduction to education class.
So this boy, the one I met in DC and have enjoyed the company of ever since, has been asking me to have lunch with him. I know it's probably because I'm the only one of his friends that isn't in class whenever he isn't, maybe, but I'm enjoying it pretty greatly. He makes me laugh and smile and he's really sincere, and from what I can tell, steady. It's definitely not a bad thing that he's quite handsome and easy to spend time with. He likes stupid movies that I have trouble sitting through, and I don't think I've ever heard him complain. He told me about the scientific merits of Spongebob yesterday. I tell my friends about some of the funny things or weird things that we talk about, but I really like keeping some of them to myself. My reasoning is twofold: I don't want literally only talk about him because I know that would get on my friends' nerves and I really want to let this go as it does. I don't want to pressure him or tell him I like him because I enjoy his company so much. Maybe that's counterintuitive, but keeping little things to myself that are just mine lets me have something to hold on to, even if this never turns into anything at all. I've started listening to country love songs and some of the music he likes, so at least in my mind, this interest is pretty serious. I joke with friends about how they're going to marry their science lab partners or meet guys in their majors mostly because I don't want to think about him all of the time. It's easier to focus on them than it is on myself. I'm not a very reflective person anymore, which is one of the big reasons I'm blogging both here and here (for class) hopefully more regularly. I really like this guy, and it's not like a middle school crush where there are just a few butterflies. I like his company, I like his attitude, and I like the way we get along. I have literally no idea if he returns any of those sentiments, but he probably likes my company at least because he keeps asking me to lunch at the college cafeteria. He's kinda shy which is really weird to me, but it's fun I think. I kind of wish he knew that I like him, but I'm not sure I want to be the person to tell him. I'll eventually woman up and let him know, but for now I'll just hold onto silly little notions of love and stuff like that. Until next time. |
AuthorTwenty-something kind-of-adult woman trying to navigate her future, her calling, and her God. Archives
August 2017
Categories
All
|